lets eat

enuf with all the emo things :)
ok im back to normal even though hv a drama yesterday between me n MIL. huhuhu sensetip okeh.
here i attached the.... (ayat rutin every week when email the CF to ED hehehe) ok the pic of food that nice ... yummy... n i suggest the reader to go n try it by ur self. (fully recommended by me n my hubby)

mee rebus ramli @ ipoh town

ABC but i only put jagung n syrup plus susu lebih :)
andthe best coconut shake in melaka - u can get it at jln klebang. near firefly kinder-garden (wahh mcm la glamer sgt tadika dina) if u come around peak hour u hv to Q at least 10 - 15 minutes to get 1 cup of coconut shake. so better dtg awal dtg lmbt (tu pon klu ade lg la that coco-shake itu)

the murah n delicious satey at kg.jawa :D
tp nk mkn ni pon kne beratur jugak klu peak hour.
tmpt ni kt blakang2 kedai so dun aspect its a proper restaurant. it just a satey-stall.

warung mak teh mee banjir udang at kuala sepetang.
ok i dun like the mee udang taste. but its the way its cooked. its not pedas but the prawn is so sweet. asyik bangat mkn udang. las2 kami habiskn udang je. yg lain2 kami tinggalkn. hehehe.

i cant wait for our next vacation and honeymoon "wink" "wink"

whats the meaning of love?

it's march already. its means we have been married for 8 months. its quite a long time even though its not enter a year yet.

dulu die penah ckp klu sampai bulan 2 ni die still x dpt balik die nk bawak pg riyadh ddk sama2 dgn die. tp... mg x la kn. dr dlu lg aku dh tau ape jawapannye.

being married its not as beautiful as i ever dream. maybe for our 3 quarter of our journey im not happy as other couple. but i really hope this difficult things will end soon. im tired for all of this.

he said that i envy to my office mate that she's being pregnant. sudah tentu. perempuan mana yg tk nk mengandung lebih2 lg anak itu adalah anak org yg paling kite sayang. tp kenapa la ssh sgt si suami nk paham? tp aku xde la rase jeles sgt ngn yun sb aku tau die mg mengharapkan new child since haziq pon dh besar.

i know im selfish im very rude to my husband. i know my dosa sgt besar. tp salah ke klu aku meminta hak aku sbgai seorg isteri??

tk de sape yg paham ape yg aku rase. tk de org nk hidup mcm ni. aku x mintak pon ini akan terjadi dlm hidup aku. penah ade makcik nih tye "ko x mengandung lg ke? apelah lambat sgt. dak A (anak die) cepat je mengandung". ya allah aku rse mcm nk tumpahkn je air yg aku bawak tu kt muke die.

yer sy mg tension. sy mg akan lakukan apa saja klu org buat saya. tp blh ke tu sume mengubah kenyataan skrang?

ya allah berilah hamba-Mu ini lebih kekuatan utk menempuhi hari2 yg mendatang.

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♥ ♥ 7 months ♥ ♥

alhamdulillah. today is our 7 months together as hubby n wifey.
thanks Allah for this relationship.

today he's going to Mekah doing umrah and alhamdulillah semuanya selamat.
he stay there for a night and tomorrow after solat jumaat he will back to Riyadh.
10 hours drive is quite a long journey to travel and i cant sleep last night. keep thinking when he will safely arrive. maybe if i was there at this time, i also going to Mekah for umrah together with him. but its not my rezeki yet. i want to go there again. i want to tawaf the Kaabah. i want to see the beautiful Allah's house. i hope one day i can be there. murahkan rezeki kami utk melawat rumah-Mu ya Allah. amin.

notes : die sudah botak. cant wait to see him botak.

i need some space to breath

1st entry in 2010.
happy hari wilayah to KL, putrajaya & labuan.
i need a space for me to take a deep breath. i know im too selfish. i know i want anything that i cant get it right now. huh.

he back to Riyadh last month after 2 weeks stay in Msia. he told me that he's gonna back for good this end of feb. but yesterday he said that maybe he will back in the early march or end of march. its mean that he gonna stay for another month. but its not confirm until he get the letter from his company.

i know im not a good wife. but pliz understand my feeling. even though u are too far from me pliz understand my situation. (klu x paham pon buat2 paham dh cukup membahagiakn)

when i said that i hate my life after married. he said i choose this life. when i said that i dont like he works at Riyadh, he said im not bersyukur since we can married earlier without berhutang. (his salary quite big there and enuf to pay all the expenses and my duit hantaran.
when i said i love my life right now. do all the things alone. stay alone in my hse. dun want to think more about marriage life and just want to focus on my career he said that i dont care about him anymore. arghhh i hate this!!

i just want a happier life to live.

i want to get pregnant and deliver his baby.

i want him everyday in my life.

i want to breath the same air with him.

is it he can understand my feeling? is it he knows that my life would suck without him??

notes : i hate ppl that always ask me dh berisi ke belom. its including my MIL. are they knows that i dont a "penyumbang sperm" right now. how i want to get pregnant?? izit i can buy the sperm at any supermarket so i can senyawakan with my ovum???
arghh if buat anak tu mcm buat kuih dh lama aku buat x payah nk ssh2 hidup sorang2 menjawap sume pertanyaan bodoh itu.

new hse

alhamdulillah. i moved to a new house on 1st dec. syukran ya Allah.

my new hse is quite smaller than the old hse. 3 rooms and 2 bathrooms. but its much more better than staying in house that's going to be lelong. even the "tuan rumah" also nice. cleaning the hse before i enter with a fully loaded small truck.

ok to be truth now im phobia with a word "pindah rumah". without oppa by my side during that time its very hard to face it alone. (ade 3 bijik piring dipecahkan dalam kejadian itu huhuu)ok i hope this is the last hse that we rent before we move to our owb hse at Krubong Jaya in 2011. owh sungguh lama :(

dunno izit "pembawakan budak" or i just changing my mood but i like to decorate my hse. hihi going to ikea take a picture then balik rumah excited told oppa that i want to deco like this like that. (im not pregnant yet okeh so that is no pembawakan budak)

i know he quite suprise when i tell him that i want to deco deco my hse. but he's not suprise when i said that i want to paint our room and ask him to get a new "getah paip" and anything that can change in the toilet. im very2 cerewet okeh when it comes to toilet and the room that i want to sleep every night.

i like the ikea concept of deco the room. even its simple but i can feel that i can sleep like in 5 star hotel everynight. hahhaha keep dreaming....

time to waiting my oppa to come back and he's gonna have a lot of work to do. yeahh!!

i want to go holiday with him. just two of us.

house for ME

what do u do if u only hv 3 days to find a new hse including bring all ur things out from the hse that u live now?

do 24 hours enuf for u? or need a magic right now?

i choose miracle. another bad things come to my life. i know im not suppose to cry like hell bcoz its not my own hse. but to think that i should out from that hse and i only have 3 days..2days and half.. or a day???? damn

update

owh lama sungguh x update ini blog. so busy with my daily routine. kerja kerja dan kerja. lalallalalala

next week dh raya haji. but my hubby still not confirm either he can back during the raya day or not. i hv so many wedding to attend especially on 12th dec. my fren's wedding at shah alam. since she and her husband came to my hse during my engagement and my wedding so x bes la klu cipta a lot of alasan that i cant attend her big day rite? and since the wedding at shah alam alah org ckp pejam mata pon blh tau jln mana mau lalu hahahha so no excuse kecuali ade hal2 yg mg x blh dielakkn.

so the qs is... who's gonna accompany me to the wedding? should i as my BFF or i just attend it alone and can meet others fren there? kusut..kusut..
dh kawen mesti lah kne pg ngn hubby xkn nk pg sorang2. tapi dunno izit he back to msia or not. sedih :(

ok to be sincere i hate my life rite now. my life after marriage is not as good as u think. from one side im happy but the other side hurm...can i say that i m crying every night?

kenapa kami diduga mcm ni?org ckp hanya org2 yg tabah saja menerima dugaan dari-Nya. tapi tabah ke aku?? kuat ke aku nk hadap sume ni sorang2???